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(Verse 1) Lookin' in the mirror / Can't stand what I see / The face starin' back / Always scarin' me / I can hear his inner thoughts / always thinkin' of death / No blood in his veins / Ice cold breath / Eyes in a trance / Showin' no emotion / Standin' perfectly still / But mind in motion / Showin' me images / Of carnage and mayhem / Sensory overload / It's fryin' my brain stem / Havin' epileptic fits / On the bathroom floor / Layin' in vomit / Can't reach the door / Whole side went numb / Can't feel my thumbs / Room starts spinnin' / Oh what have I done / Swallowed twenty little pills / Fifty milligrams each / Now I close my eyes / For eternal deep sleep
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(Verse 2) Blood flows from my wrist / Like waterfalls during spring thaw / Crimson glow radiates / Like the nose on Rudolph / Bath water rush / Turn from blue to dark red / I start to feel dizzy / Gettin' light in the head / Envelope taped to the fridge / With a note inside / Giving reasons why / Of apparent suicide / Heart pumps faster / Trying to replace lost fluids / A man opens the door / In a black robe like druids / Eyelids get heavy / As the room grows dark / Reaper swings his scythe / Hittin' right on the mark / In the distance / Growing bright / In the darkness / Tunnel of light / Halos glow and wings flash / As angels take flight
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(Verse 3) I'm sweatin' heavy now / And havin' second thoughts / I keep lookin' at the nine / That I just bought / As I'm drivin' down the freeway / goin' fifty-nine south / I keep havin' the urge / To put the gun in my mouth / Will I pull the trigger / Can I pull the trigger / Will I be missed / Or just a dead nigga / I start to wonder why / As I start to cry / Is ther another way / Do I have to die / Why must I remain / In so much pain / I swerve off the road / To blow out my brains / I find a nice quiet spot / In a dark parking lot / Thinking of reasons why / And reasons why not / I put a bullet in the clip / I put the gun to my lips / I squeeze hard on the trigger / And let my mind slip / I blink once I blinks twice / And nothin' happens / I guess that's obvious / Cause' I'm still here rappin' about...
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